I do have some anxiety about becoming a Catholic. The point is to come to grips with the reality of things, and outside the Church it seems to me there’s no reality. On the other hand, reality is alarming. Then too, there are Christ’s comments on those who don’t carry through—the king who undertakes war without enough soldiers (Luke 14:31-33), or the devil who returns with 7 worse devils (Matthew 12:43-45).
I’ll be praying for you and
I’ll be praying for you and all candidates and catechumens. I was asked to be a sponsor this year and my catechumen is well informed and serious about becoming a Catholic. She may not make it this Easter because of her marital situation. We have tried everything we can think of in human terms and now it is obvious that only God can change her husband’s heart. So I pray every day for that too.
I returned to the Church after more than thirty years. I could not do it on my own, I had to ask God for the courage to go to Confession. When I did that it was a surrender for me and it immediately (!) became a simple matter. Confession was no problem even though I had to confess serious sins.
Your anxiety is understandable and natural. As you say, reality can be alarming.
Over the years, as I’ve tried to “catch up” on the prayer life and knowledge that I missed, it has become more and more obvious to me that it is by the power of the Holy Spirit that we are able to pray and hear the Word and receive the Eucharist.
The Holy Spirit is always with you in your journey.
Pray and have faith. Pray
Pray and have faith. Pray for faith. And trust Him. As the Holy Father suggested recently: in times of doubt and difficulty, fervently pray: “Jesus, I trust in you.”
Congratulations and God bless you! 🙂